My name is Nikki Raffail.
I'm trying to make a difference in this world. I'm trying to keep philosophy alive. I'm trying to influence your mind all the while mine is traveling an a billion directions at once.
I believe a little insanity is a good thing.
I'm inspired by life and I'm inspired by brains and nature and love and happiness and obsessiveness and anything else that's in this universe and outside of it. I think too much. I write compulsively. I don't want society to stop reading. I don't want society to stop creating. I want to contribute to this planet's literature that is so often hidden under media, pop culture, and other things that won't really matter in fifty years.
These are my thoughts, and I can't control them. I can't control the words that flow out of my brain and through my body.
This is word vomit. And I'm not cleaning it up.
of you

We lay side by side, with sides against sides,
With backs against the mattress.
We read silently out of the same book.
One of your hands held one side of the book and your other hand
was my pillow.
One of my hands held the other side of the book and my other hand
held my cup of coffee.
The decreasing warmth told me how much time was passing.

We were our own poetry club;
Shortly discussing the piece that we held above our eyes
After we patiently waited for the other to finish
Before we flipped to another piece.

Book down, your eyes scanned the ceiling.
I asked you what you were thinking.
You didn’t know, so you asked me the same.
I thought about my thoughts.
And then I told you I would probably write about this later.
I never lie to you.

My palm adjusted to the warmth of my cup
And I no longer felt the contrasting temperatures.
As the early-afternoon light cut through my blinds,
I couldn’t tell whether two or twenty minutes had passed.

When you kissed my head 
And I looked up to catch your eyes,
My fingers of my once-book-holding hand intertwined with your pillow,
I didn’t care whether two or twenty minutes had passed. 

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